Daddie's 1st Entry
I would like to begin by asking you to pause and reflect on a time in your life in which God has blessed you.....
God has shown himself to all of us at one point or another but most of us didn't recognize it. By his grace he gave us all life. A life that is precious, a life that is wonderful, a life that is difficult. A life for us to choose our own way or His! God says that he knew us before we were born. He formed us in the womb (Isaiah 44:2), he defines our purpose for our time here on earth.
Last year about a week or so before fathers day I found out I was going to be a dad. I felt in my heart that this baby that God knew, that God had been forming was a little girl! My little girl that he was trusting me to care for, love, and teach. My joy, I could not describe in words it was a blessing from God! Those beginning months I knew I had to prepare myself not physically or financially but spiritually. Was I ready to be a dad, could I do what God asks and bring her up n faith so she could follow him (Proverbs 22:6). I thank God that I had examples on how to be faithful through my mom and dad. I love them for being a man and woman of God, because in their house they serve the Lord (Joshua 24:15). I learned that from them, even though my life tended to be lukewarm (Revelation 3:15-16), as far as following Jesus. God has always been there, he never left me from the day I was born (Hebrews 13:5). We chose to leave him and only come to him when something goes wrong. God says to be joyful always pray continually give thanks in all circumstances, this is God's will for us in Christ Jesus (Thessalonian 5:16-18).
Elena was born and I was there anxious, scared, excited, and in love full of emotion. In the operating room I could hear all the goings on separately from everything else, I could see everyone's eyes except for the doctor, because his back was towards me. I watched everyone said nothing and just couldn't believe I was going to be a dad. Elena was born and she didn't cry at first and then ou could hear her through out the hospital. After what the doctors and nurses do in checking her out, they gave her right to me and she was quiet and moving around. All I could do was stare at her and thank God for her and for Christine to both be okay. At another time maybe I'll tell your more about those days and others, but for now remember when I asked you to reflect on a time God has blessed you? God blessed me right there at the hospital when my little girl was born. God gave her a purpose and she fulfilled that by making sure her Mommie and Daddie would give there lives entirely to Jesus. I thank God for Elena, I thank God I held her in my arms. I thank God I know him (Psalms 46:10). Elena is in the arms of or heavenly father now and I know that I know she came to me to prepare me spiritually and to praise God and to tell others of his Love (Psalms 96:1-3), even though she is no longer in my arms. I'm only human and the pain my heart feels is always heavy, but God hears my cries, God comforts me, and best of all God loves me (1 Peter 5:10).
February 26th was one of the worst days for me after Elena went to be with Jesus. I was at work and customer after customer would ask, how's the baby? Is she keeping you up at night or some other baby question. I would have to tell them the sad news and the pain kept getting stronger and stronger. My heart was breaking each time and I couldn't take it. I wanted to just give up and run out. It felt like someone was just tearing my heart up in pieces and I could not stop crying. I know people saw my pain and didn't know what to say to me. I'd hide it the best I cold to others walking in, but for some reason that day everyone who knew I had a baby came in to talk about her. Again I can't describe it in words how I felt. At one point I put my head down in tears and begged God to make it stop. Make my pain go away, help me. I cried out to him like never before; and then soon after the power for most of south Florida went out and after that the police officer blocked our street so no one could come down and that afternoon God heard me, He saved me from my heart breaking even more( Psalms 34:4). I know that sounds extreme, but I only had 3 more customers that day and not one of those 3 knew me or asked me about the baby. God answered my cries just as he promises (Mark 9:23). He'd might have done it another way, but he made me realize that he was with me in a way so big that it could have only been him.
Like I said before sometimes we don't recognize what he does for us, but he does things to get our attention to focus our eyes on him and his glory. Life here on earth is short and the troubles or struggles we go through be it sickness, loss of a loved one, finances, accident, a bad decision, or whatever you face, seek him that's all he wants from us (2 Corinthians 4:17-18). He gets our attention one way or another so we can make our choice. I choose Jesus because his words comfort me, his love surrounds me, and through my little girl he showed me! I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord is my strength and my song he has become my salvation (Isaiah 12:2). Pray and ask God to come into your heart, he is coming soon, be prepared. Read his word because God is who loves us and who teaches us through his word. All I have described or wrote about corresponds to those verses listed, I hope you take the time to look up God's word and how it applied to my life, his word is truth because he is truth. You can find out how to apply his promises to your life no matter what you face. My love to all who read this and who support and pray for Christine and me.
God Bless You,
Jerry
you guys are amazing and an inspiration to all. love you guys.
Posted by: Yannery | Monday, June 16, 2008 at 09:07 AM