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love it when God speaks to me. Because he knows I am not sure when it him beyond a shadow of a doubt, he does it through others. Again remember there is no such thing as coincidence. In Sunday school this morning, A couple with a baby girl about Elena's age approached us. When I saw them walking over I pretended to not really notice the baby. When I realized they were coming to talk to us, I thought God, you have got to be kidding me. They said someone had told them we lost our baby. They had lost their little boy 9 years ago. They felt they had to come over and speak to us, and let us know it will eventually get a little better. They also mentioned that God will not to forget, She is 44 with a 4-5 month old healthy baby girl. She told me they associate their little boy with sun flowers. Ironic, because Jerry and I associate all things pink and green with Elena, the color of her room. Her husband spoke to Jerry which I know made him feel a little bit better. Speaking to another man of God who had been through a similar loss. God made sure they let us know their age and the age of their little girl, because Friday was the anniversary of the day I found out I was pregnant with my little angel. These last few days have been bitter sweet.
My being out of work for 6 months is beginning to concern us financially. But, God also let us know this morning he's got it under control. I say , Thank God someone is. Even the simplist of decisions seem so difficult. We just aren't in the right mind set to make many decision.
After the couple approached us, I asked Jerry, Does everyone know who we are? And then I realized and remembered. Everyone is watching, they want to see us there. I realized God is using us to inspire others who watch is in our walk. To them we are amazing. You see alot of people even believers of 20-30 years would be wavered in their faith by events like these. The truth is WE are not amazing, God is amazing. It is our job to show God's grace in our situation. So that people understand God's love. I know God is carrying me through this. Because when I try to stand on my own, I fall on my knees.
This photo is my favorite for many reasons. 1) It looks professional, yet done by me. 2) It's like the Mona Lisa, no matter where you stand she's looking right at you. 3) My favorite: the Lamb of God is holding my little girl.
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