All is well. Keeping extremely busy. The wedding was wonderful. The bride stunning. I did get to spend sometime alone, which I was totally fine with. I ended up having a good time towards the end, once i relaxed a little and the initial shock of what we should have been doing was over. The morning I was leaving there was this little girl playing in the pool and she had on the brightest pink and green hat I have ever seen. (My little girl was there.) Last night I went to support group. I know the lord led me there, yet I don't fully understand why. There was a new couple whose loss was very recent and my heart went out to them, because I was there. I had all her same questions. She still is somewhat in the angry stage, which I explained, will come and go and come and go. She still blaming and questioning herself, which also comes and goes. The cycle are that cycles of the same feeling coming back and you have to work through them one by one at your own pace. I just fully understood, she had so many questions although she already knew the answers. It's so hard when the wound is that fresh. The pain cuts so deep and you feel as empty as the grand canyon. All you want is to wake-up from the nightmare and with each passing day you realize the alarm is never going to ring.
I was glad I found out since we now have a C.O.D. for Elena any future children can be treated and tested as though they have the same problem. Which is great because it puts my mind at ease, Between the medicine and prayer, I feel I can do this.
I ask that you pray for this family that has just lost their precious little girl, that the lord may comfort them the way he has us.
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