I have to say I have been doing well. I have been very blessed and busy. This is Elena's Christmas Tree, We will be placing this at her marker. Thanksgiving was good very peaceful just us and the in laws nice and quite at the kitchen table. For me it had to be different from last year, when the topic was the coming baby all through out. Immediately following I volunteered to help decorate my Church Sanctuary. I figured let me start the holidays by Christmas decorating for God. Praise God I found such a peace and I worked with someone I could just talk to about nothing at all yet, knows the situation and was sensitive to that as well. While decorating for God I realized I still have to decorate for Elena. You see I love Christmas everything about Christmas. This year I was going to have a baby, a child of my own to include in my traditions to see her eyes light up at the sight of presents. I know I'm too much; she was only going to be one, but she could still open presents. So, I feel why not make it special anyway in her memory. So as far as decorating goes I will be going all out on the inside of the house (no body drives down my street to bother with the outside). We are also participating with the church's Angel Tree program in her memory. We're becoming very active on her behalf another blessing in disguise I'm sure. I picked our angel to provide a gift off of the tree and low and behold I got a one year old little girl. I think it would be great to pick one every year based on how old Elena would be.
This holiday season and as the close of another year approaches, I think we should all be grateful for our blessings. We all have blessings. Believe me I know we all have sorrows too. But why dwell on the negative which makes us angry, we can't change anything. So we might as well make the absolute best attempt to turn the sad into good, for our own good. A couple of weeks ago during a Sunday Service my Pastor asked for a raise of hands of those who have health, relationship, or financial hardships at this time for prayer. And it occurred to me. What a blessing, I couldn't raise my hand. Health wise, I think I'm okay, overweight but okay. Relationship, Jerry and I are doing great no complaints here. And financial, the Good Lord is providing all of our needs and a tiny bit extra. What else could I ask for. Yes, I don't have my little angel, but at least I know where she is. Sometimes I think about parents whose children have been kidnapped and the have no idea as to the condition of their child or if they are even alive. And I think to myself I am blessed I got to say goodbye, I got to hold her one last time. Yes, yes I am blessed.
If I could ask a favor of you all in your holiday shopping if you happen to run into a pink and green stocking, please Email me the name of the store so I can pick one up. I'm trying to find one for Elena and of course it has to be in her colors.
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