Well, all of the firsts are over praise God, just a bit bittersweet for me. Bitter because it's been one year since I held my baby girl, wow already a year has past, so fast. Sweet because I survived and my walk with Lord is greater and stronger than it ever has been. I praise God for carrying me this past year. Who knows where I would be if not for his grace. I am at peace knowing Elena and I are only apart for a season. This past year has definitely been a time of soul searching, digging deep within me to find out who I am and what I believe in and where I want to go from here on out. Getting and setting my priorities straight have been of up most importance for me. It's a shame it takes a personal life crisis for us to put ourselves under the microscope and truly evaluate all the imperfections and where we have been and where we are going.
I have come a very long way and still have a very long way to go. It's a struggle everyday to be the very best me I can be (oh, how I hate the moments of backslides). Navigating through life with a new hope and strength. Remembering how unhappy the old me was and making sure I don't return. Oh, how grateful I am for my faith in God. Knowing his promises, knowing he has a spectacular plan for me beyond anything I could ever imagine. Learning to hear his voice and not my own. It's funny I talk about God so much now. He's probably the main topic at least 75% of the time as well he should be. I understand some of you reading this who know me personally are probably a bit confused about my "new life". But I have to tell you, I am so happy and content. Seriously without God's Love and Mercies, I would surely be a miserable basket case, "a nut job". I love that I am reinventing myself into a better, kinder, empathetic person. Sometimes I think back and say wow, I was just MEAN. Who did I think I was? I seriously suffered from illusions of grandeur. Thank God for reality checks. Amen!?
I received the statement below in an e-mail, I love it. How true it is, How true it is.
"The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you."
I added a new song your probably listening to right now of the same title as this entry, It truly explains how I feel with regards to this past year, better yet my life.
I Never would have made it, without God!
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